Felt like taking cab to school today
On the way to school, I was thinking alot.

Relationship,
I can forgo it.
At this age, it's best to have a lot of close guy friends
then to have 1 bf.
(:

Friends,
I love them.
But sometimes, I'm afraid that we might drift apart.
I drifted apart with a lot of friends already.
I thought that they were my closest friends
but in the end, we drifted apart.
Maybe it's because of my attitude towards friends.
I admit that last time, I was bf-orientated.
But now, I ain't.
I realised the importance of friends.
I love them.

Family,
I've got 2 brothers.
But I'm not close to either of them.
The reason being,
my eldest bro is always studying overseas and now working overseas.
My 2nd elder bro is always having gf and he is getting married already. (:
I'm happy for the both of them as they know where they are heading and what they want in life.
As for me?
Haiy. ):
My parents are aging already.
Illnesses coming.
I'm afraid and scared.
I love my family.

Life,
I honestly don't know what is my own objective and goal I want in my life.
Why am I in marketing?
What do I like about marketing?
I don't know.
Why am I so despo about having a bf?
I am enjoying my single life.
I suddenly feel that I've been wasting my life for this 17+ years ding foolish stuff
But am equally glad that I gained experience.
Experience that made me grew stronger.
In the past, I used to face my difficulties/obstacles bravely.
Right now, I try to avoid them as much as possible.
Why is this so?
Is it that last time, problems used to be much simpler then now,
or is it that I am thinking more and harder then last time.
Making everything look/feel so complicated?
Another problem about me
is that I speak without thinking most of the time.
Now the feeling is gone and I feel so stupid not thinking carefully before confessing.
And I made a fool out of myself. ):

So many unans-ed questions.
Who can help me?