It'll keep on happening until we solve the problem.





I miss you much.


This is the very first time that,


I study till my whole body is so weak
and
I'm feeling dizzy.



I do not want to score badly for Marketing. =(


I just finished chatting with my pri school classmate.


It has been a LOOOONG time since I was intouch with my pri school classmate. I guess the only one that I am in contact with is him ba. Lol.


I miss those pri school days whereby we didnt have so much to think about and lead everyday a happy day. =)




How I wish that tomo is a holiday.

Labels: just shoot me dead

Stats paper was a killer. I REALLY HOPE I PASS!!!
I really dont want to take supp paper, it sucks.

Econs however was enjoyable. =) Although there were a few points that I CLEARLY forgotten.


Next, marketing.
Since I'm going to be in marketing for year 2, I really want to score.
But, can I?



All I want is to have a nice chat with u.
But you give me the tone that you are very fan and the reason is ME.

Call u, always have all sorts of excuses to turn me down.

Watching tv,
No mood,
Headache,
Playing games,
Sleepy.


When your friends call you do you give them such excuses?
No.


Then you might say that it's because I keep on calling u.
Have you ever wondered why?

I guess not.



Well, tomo's your last paper and it's my 2nd last.
Good luck for the both of us and...



I love you.




P.S I guess writing all my feelings here isn't going to do much help. You only scan through my posts. Or rather, you don't look at my blog.


I was on the bed for an hour and I couldnt fall aslp.

Now when I turn on my comp I feel like slpin.



WADEVER!


I was just being concerned and I got that kind of reaction.


Does it hurts to be concerned? YES.


Friends friends friends.
Friends are much impt
Friends cannot be lost.
Friends priorities.
Friends are worth sacrificing more.


Friends...

It isn't wrong.


But it is unfair to me.



I have 2 papers tomo. Bus Stats and Econs.
Although Stats is an open book test, SO?
It is still as difficult.
Econs, I hope I score as it is my FAV sub.



Am I such a nice person to be bullied?
Am I?
I can be tough, I can be diff.
But this way, I am not me.



Change?
Why do I act this way?
Have you ever wonder?




Ya.
I am in the wrong.


I AM SO UNIMPORTANT.


I AM SO GONNA FLUNK MY OB PAPER TOMO.


PLEASE DON'T LET ME TAKE SUPP PAPER AGAIN!!!


Watched this drama show before blogging.

The ending was sweet and full of happiness in the air. =)


The guy promises her that wherever she goes, he will follow. And, he really did that. So xian mu. Although this is just a drama show, there are sure to be living examples. I am so jealous.


No men will treat me as his princess, not even the current one.


why do u ALWAYS have to use HARSH words on ME ?

do YOU know it is very HURTING ?


Just 1 call that lasted a few secs and a very short sms that consist of only 3 words can be defined as to irritate u.
Wow.
Shld I treat it as a compliment or that I am irritating even though I did nth but just those?

Shld I be hurt by this?


Just reached home. His dad sent me home. =) Didn't have to take taxi. HEHE.

He says that I am stress? Am I? I ain't even chionging my studies when everybody is. BUT... I've had been having bad dreams for the past few nights, couldnt slp well at all, keep on waking up. AM I STRESS?


I enjoyed that talk just now. =)

Thank you Dada. =)


I'm at his house now blogging. =X

And guess what is he doing?


His fav hobby, DABIANING! Heh heh! So SMELLY!
Still want me to stand outside the toilet and talk to him. ><

I swear that after this I am GONNA STUDY!!!

=)


I am strong, I am cheerful!
It was just that yest was a very very BAD day for me. =)


there are so many loop holes

and yet I still trust u



gosh, i feel like ending my life.


Kays. This blog shall only be dedicated to me and only me.

I don't care about other ppl's comment or anything anymore.
I don't bother if anyone reads my blog.
The tagboard is already gone.


Today has been a really bad day for me.

Labels: cant be bothered

You'll be there when I need you.
You'll never hurt me.
You'll protect me.


ALL BULLSHIT!


and yet I still love you so much. wtf.


I just cant FUCKING concentrate!


So many things going through my mind everynight, whenever I feel lonely.

I can't help it being emo, although I DONT WANT TO!


HATE IT.



Studies, relationship, physical appearances, friends, bla bla bla.
All of these going through my mind without FAIL every other night.

I want to STUDY but nothing goes into my mind. I can't concentrate. I can't this, I can't that.

RELATIONSHIP. I somehow figure out that this problem existed after a year being together or either when I realised that his friends are much impt then me. How am I suppose to prove it to him that I am worth his 100%? Being only worth his that percentage ( which I dont know ) really makes me feel that I am a FAILURE girlfriend, or either I am not worth it at all. What am I suppose to do? No matter how hard I try, I am still at the original starting point.

My PHYSICAL APPEARANCES really throw me off. I am FAT and UGLY. I am STUPID! My face is ROUND, I have a FAT TUMMY, a FAT BUTT, FAT LEGS, HUGE ARMS. I AM FAT!

I'm going to be in year 2 already and besides that, I'll be in MARKETING while the rest are in BUSINESS STUDIES ( which is my FIRST choice ) I will miss my friends. And smth bad happened to my friend recently, no details. But it really affected us alot. Hell to that gal.


I can't tell him, no is I don't want to tell him. As what he says, so what if he knows? He can't do anything. I AM ALL ON MY OWN. Besides, I am adding to his stress.


I am F-A-T


&


I am U-G-L-Y







I wish to BE D-R-U-N-K now.




Someone just shoot me dead now.


I want you by myside again. ><

How greedy am I?




I miss you!


Just came back from SOTONG'S house. Played 21 there.

And guess what.





I LOST 17 BUCKS THERE!!! ><><




lol.

P.S I LOVE YOU

It is a VERY touching story. You can feel that her husband really LOVES her to BITS. Even that when he has passed away, he still worried for her. =) How I wish that I'll have a husband like that. =P

After the show, home-ed.

Dada, I broke ur heart last night. You xing xing ku ku plan this Vday for me and yet I broke ur heart. I really do not know what to do now. I know that you are tired of this relationship already. I really don't know what to say now. I only know that tears are gathering at my eyes and is about to flow out anytime. I find myself so useless. I'm always the one thinking that you are taking me for granted. And now I know that it is ME who is taking YOU for GRANTED. I hate this. I hate me. I know that u say that dont come saying sorry to you since I've already done it. But besides saying sorry, what else can I do? I am not a good gf at all.

Up till now, I am still damn damn bu shuang about her.

AND I DO NOT KNOW WHY!!!


I LOVE STUDYING

BE OPSTIMISTIC

STAY HIGH

AND NO MORE SULKY DAYS!

Other polys are having holiday now la!

HOW SHUANG CAN THEY GET!!!


And TP is like, exams start at 22nd feb. DIAO can. GRRRR...





STUDY STUDY STUDY!



When they had their exams, we rush projects. ZHEN SHI DE!


what am I suppose to feel?

am I too rash?

I feel so god damn fucking confused.

I dont want to feel that way.

what am I suppose to do?




how I wish to bang my head against the wall now.


NOW, I understand how does it feel when EMO ppl feel like slithing their wrist.


Outcasted

















Overwhelmed with tears
Was too afriad to even realise where was I


HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!


On the eve of CNY, cleaned Daddy's clinic and had renuion dinner at KAM BOAT. Yummy. =)
After that rushed down to FAR EAST FLORA located at bedok. I was the cashier there and my parents and bro helped out too. SO SO SO BUSY!

He came down to my house in the morning!!! HEH HEH.

We ended at around 1am and I had to tally the money in the cash register to the total amt stated
in the reciept, I was short of $10++. =(


1st day of CNY went to my Dad's side and today, Mom's side.

Yest went to watch CJ7! It is so cute and funny, yet sad. Stephen Chow once stated on a interview that he has been making ppl laugh for a very long time. But now, he wants to make ppl cry.

Yes, he did it. He made us cry.

Labels: bring me away

I noticed that I'm always adjusting my time to fit others schedule.

What about mine?


Had 2 tuts this morning and supposed to have acc tut at 4pm.
Which means my break is from 1pm-4pm.

HOWEVER...


Mr Dennise said that we dont have to go. WAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
SO....
Sotong pei me to Sing Post to get my nails done
and
I managed to convince her in doing meni too! =D


I had dark blue for both my fingernails and toenails. My hands are still alright but my toes are abit wierd. Blue?? Hmmm...
Her's was bright red. NICE!



Haiy, what can I do to help him? =(